It's not me it's you

I’m off to get another cat :p :s

What if I turn into a crazy, lonely, loveless cat lady?!!

Sooo turns out he had lost his phone and he called my work (now been fired) asking for my number. We have been out a few times since then. He works a lot and I only get to see him once or twice every two weeks. Now I’m really confused… What’s actually going on between us? Are we going out? Is he using me for sex? Should I ask him what’s actually going on? I mean it’s been at least a month. I just spoke to him on the phone and it ended really weird first he said I never tell him anything about myself (I wouldn’t tell him what I’d done today because I said it was boring) then he said “so text or call me tomorrow or in a couple of days” and then I said something along the lines of when do I get to see you. He said that he wanted to rest his leg (hurt it badly while working) and didn’t want to be grumpy around me then pretty much left it like that and said we MIGHT arrange something tomorrow “or something” and said sweet dreams and hung up.

Oh god… So what have I done now? I know I’m more interesting then I appear around him but I get really shy and nervous, especially on the phone.

Does he like me? Should I ask him whats actually going on?

HELP!!

Girl at shop counter just said “Have a lovely night, while I’m home with my loving boyfriend and you’re alone with your ice cream”

ok… she didn’t say that but her tone said it all!

*Checks phone with insane twitchy eye*

Ignoring all the other stories that occurred this year lets start with the most recent, In the last week or so in fact.

One night after my work Christmas party i was heading home with a guy. I ended up half sleeping on a McDonald’s couch (dont ask me how because i totaaallllyyy wasn’t intoxicated or anything) and a gorgeous European man comes up to me and asks me how I am (In his sexy sexy voice) and he sits with me for hours making sure i am ok and telling me stories while i shared my amazing story about a chipmunk that felt left out because he was blue and red (how sad) but he found a female chipmunk that was purple and blue so everything was A OK.
Anyway! So then the trains start up again and Gorgeous European man walks me to the train station and asks for my number. He then sweetly called me and talked to me until I was at my station.

Then after a few days we ended up going on a date and it was WONDERFUL (there were literally fireworks) and he was so sweet. I spent the night with him (no we didn’t sleep together because we’re classy people… who drink red wine and sit on expensive lounge chairs). He showered me with compliments and said what a great time he had had etc etc. The next day he called and texted me asking when he could see me next. I said i was free Thursday… well i said it in a much more alluring and charming way of course.. He said he had work in the morning but was i free in the afternoon or evening? I said

“whatever time is easiest for you”

-no reply for nearly a day and it is now 5pm on Thursday so i say

“So when would you like to meet?”

- no reply so i call after an hour and phone rings for 15 seconds and then goes to voice mail. Rejection!

So i would understand all that if there had been signs

- if the date had been horrible

- If he didn’t seem so keen

- If i started eating small children

Now i must mention he has a very old phone and is terrible at replying to texts. Should i assume that he lost his phone (nearly happened before) Or that he has suddenly changed his mind?

Im so very confused

So I’ve after some thought (5 seconds t0 be precise) I’ve decided that it’s a fab idea to share my most private moments with the internet world and such. Over the past year I’ve been pretty unlucky with “love” (if you call it that) and have come to the conclusion that I am a real life Bridget Jones… without the silly happy ending of course.

I have not gotten to the whole “I hate all men god damn it!!” point yet.. Well there was that one time with the tub of ice cream and all that chocolate.. when was that? An hour ago? No wayyyyy.

Anyway welcome to my personal love diary!